three hundred

For a month I've been sitting here wanting to make post #300 some big whopper of a deal but somehow that doesn't look like it's going to happen.  I've got so many thoughts that run through my head daily and so many ideas/things I want to blog about but time just seems to get in the way.  I read on one of the social networks  in the past day or two that someone compared time sucking to that same black hole that eats our socks.  I can totally relate.

The last month has been a whirlwind and the day I drove home from the airport with an empty car it all came to a screeching halt.  Might have had a little something to do with the 3:45 a.m. wake up call, I don't know.  I know at that early hour there's definitely a fog in my head!  There's always something very hard but also very hopeful for me about arriving at the airport on departure day as I slowly drive by the gate hoping my visitors don't want to brave throwing themselves out of the moving vehicle risking injury then running behind the car to grab the luggage from the trunk to start their trek home.  That trick didn't work for me this time as my brother-in-law threatened he knew someone who knew someone.  You get the picture. 

Truth of the matter is it's always incredibly difficult for my sister and I to go our separate ways.  I love the closeness that we share and am so blessed to have her as my sister, we both just wish she lived here.  Maybe someday.  The husband seems to think it will happen and I really hope he's right.  Funny....I don't think we got even one picture of the two of us during this visit.  So much going on neither of us thought about it. 

There was a lot of celebrating.  A lot of eating.  A lot of exploring.  A lot of everything and it was wonderful.

We're now headed down an exciting new path writing the next chapter in our book.  I'm very happy about the decisions my precious boy has made about school and I look forward to watching him continue to grow and evolve.

Tanner,

I wonder where the time went and how we got here so quickly.  As I look back on the years remembering all the special moments that touched my heart I find it difficult to believe that you're ready to start down the road to your future, a future that you will write based on decisions and choices you will have in front of you.  I recall a day many years ago where I couldn't even fathom the thought that you would be old enough to graduate thinking that the time would go so much more slowly and that I "had time" for everything.  I found out all too quickly that that really isn't the case.  The time goes so much more quickly than you can comprehend right now and while you grew up much too quickly and have endured so much more than you deserved, you've come out of it on top and learned so much from it.  I'm so proud of you for all you've accomplished, how brave you are and all you continue to do and be on a daily basis and I am proud to be your mom.  You've so much promise and so much of yourself to share with the world my only wish is that you find what it is you love to do and do it, for life is too short not to.  

You have been all a son should be and more.  I want you to know that I will always be here for you to support you no matter what because I am your biggest fan.

I love you little boy.  

your mommy

Yes, he still calls me mommy and yes, he hugs me anytime he leaves the house as well as before bed.  It's official, he's still my little boy and I'll take it for as long as I can get it!